Is it just me, or is growing up completely and totally scary?
I mean, nobody ever told me how stressful it would be as a teenager when I’m supposed to know exactly what I want to do in life before I’m finished high school.
And nobody told me that it would only get worse when I was a teenager AND an adult, and I STILL didn’t know exactly what I wanted
Ohh, but then, when you get a kinda-sorta-idea as to what you want to do, then you have to figure out how the heck you’re going to get enough money to even TRY and make that kinda-sorta-idea into reality!
Life’s hard, you guys. And it’s scaring me.
I’m at this stage in my life, where I can see my future and what I’d like to be doing (kinda-sorta), but it’s the in-between parts that I’m having trouble with. And I have all of these questions, and my brain has had enough:
How am I going to begin my career? School.
Ok, how am I going to go to school? Find money.
Where? Research places, e-mail people, call people.
Ok, I did that, and nobody wants to get back to me, so now what?
I DON’T KNOW SISI, I QUIT!!!
… see? Scary.
And I’m so scared in fact that I forgot to introduce myself.
I’m Sisi, which derives from my URL name SIlent SInger. (I thought I would be cheeky and clever by writing it as silent singr … y’know, ‘cause it’s tumblr! Get it? Hahaha … ha … ha?)
… No, that’s of course not my REAL name, but who cares right?
And my blog is called Thoughts From Outside the Closetbecause … well, I’m out of the closet, and I have a lot of thoughts.
Yes yes, I’m a lesbian. But more importantly, I’m free. Free from everything that has ever made me into something that I’m not, and with that being said, I’ve got some thought-sharing to do.
But for now, I will bid you all a good night, and leave the rest of my thoughts for another time.
Sleep tight! <3
PS. Sorry for ranting. :$